There are many times I want to shut down this blog. I want to do so for my own sanity and to start back on the road to normality. But I can’t do it. Why? Because the truth is covered up every day; women’s lives are lost and no one hears their voices. Except me. Their voices are constantly in my head, driving me to find them help.
I know for the most part it is useless. I don’t have the resources to help them. But I listen. I send them back a note of comfort and information to help them move forward. But some can’t. They are out of money and are homebound. They are at the mercy of the State they live in and local doctors.
When the word mesh is mentioned, for the most part the attitude is “It’s not my problem”. “Or you just want money”. What money I ask? Where is all this money they speak of?
This is the face of mesh. The reality of what it does to women’s lives. And this is the norm. I am posting her email as she wrote it because these are her words. Her name remains anonymous. She wants the world to know about what is happening. She wants her State rep to step in and do something. The reality is it will never happen. I will call her P. Now P’s voice will be heard. It isn’t a lot I know, but she deserves it.
This is P’s life.
Sorry , linda it has took so long to answer , but your e mail has been the only response that I have got from anyone that seem to care. I have had to saty over night in local hospital, and had to go to emergency room for oxygen this week, My heath is going down so fast since they , lied and said they were going to remove some of the mesh protruding out in me at Vanderbilt hospital , last november. it has been a nightmare and more damage done , since that surgery.
Please look over spelling and errs, but I am weak and it comes out garble sometimes.
Linda , I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY DOCTORS AND NURSES ARE SO CRUEL TO THE WOMEN QWITH THIS MESH AND THE CASES. sorry about the caps not yelling , forget to release the caps , please over look. caps.
oVER 4 YEARS OF SUFFERING, AND SOMETIMES i could not get anti biotics at all, to fight, most embarrasing infections, has took my immune system down to where i have no strength any ore , to fight off anything, that is why after novermber surgery I got pneumonia ,in my lungs , now double trouble at both ends fight infections.gasping for breath. and docs know that no human can fight infections like this. it is not living , I am dyING , I CAN’T GET GROCERIES AND SMALLEST CHORES NOW, MIND BOGGLING HOW THIS HAS DESTROYED MY LIFE .
they have pumped me with steroids and anti biotics , trying to get rid of infections in lungs now, I CAN’T LIE DOWN FLAT ANY MORE, i WAIT AND WONDER WHAT IS NEXT TO COME.
NOTHING FOR PAIN AT ALL EXCEPT ASPRIN WILL THEY GIVE,
Linda , I CRY MERCY NOW, I know that my life will be nothing but the same fighting infections, and pain and suffering, I was told at vander5bilt that all of the mesh could not be removed at all. i think it has got into my bowelas and more ,I CANNOT CONTROL BOWELS AND BLADDER AT ALL. SO i am home bound.
LINDA, why will they not show mercy to humans that are suffering from this mesh. i KNOW , THAT IS WHAT MY LIFE WILL BE TILL DEATH, THAT IS NO WAY FOR ANYONE TO LIVE, I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE THIS WAY SO WEAK, EVEN A YEAR AGO i COULD WALK OUTSIDE NOT NOW, WITHOUT AFRAID OF FALLING.
i am pleading for mercy and death to die with no pain, , we can give a pet a shot at vets to get them out of pain and suffering, but I CANNOT GET ANYTHING FOR PAIN. NOT THAT i would want to live on pain meds either , so why not having someone to put people to sleep like surgery and stop their heart. showing mercy?
CAN YOU HELP ME TELL STATE REPS FOR THIOSE THAT CHOOSE NOT TO SUFFER , AT WHAT THEY AREW NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR WITH MESH , THEY CHOOSE NOT TO BE A GUINEA PIG AND BE TREATED SO CRUEL BY MEDICAL PROF, . THAT SHOW NO MERCY. BUT THE STATE CAN ORDER THIS FOR THOSE THAT CHOOSE DEATH TO GET OUT OF PAIN.
i know that jesus would say yes, he suffered, and only evil people in history that were evil and even got entertainment from long suffering as those they crusified. long and drawn out. i HAVE SUFFERED LONG ENOUGH, AS ONE DOCTOR A GYNOCOLOGIST, YOPUNG, SAT AND DID NOTHING ABOUT 3 WEEKS AGO THAT i HAD NEVER SEEN, ASI gasped for air and breath in his office. I WOULD HAVE HAD TO CALL AN AMBUKLANCE TO GET SOMEONE IN PAIN AND SUFFERING GASPING FOR AIR , COUKLD GET, HE HAD THE COLDEST LOOK ON HIS FACE , i will never go back. why,. ? why? why? are they angry at the women suffering in the medical prof.?
I WANT TO DIE , AND WITH DIGNITY. NO MORE LIES , NO PAIN OVER 5 YEARS IS LONG ENOUGH. MERCY GOVERNORS SHOULD DO SOMETHING TO GET PEOPLE THAT ALL THEY HAVE IS MORE INFECTIONS AND NO IMMUNE SYSTEM TO FIGHT THE INFECTIONS AND A SLOW DEATH, THAT NEEDS TO BE STOPPED. AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. THIS IS NOT LIFE3 AND IT IS THE CRUELEST MURDER OF MEDICAL i KNOW OF IN THE HISTORY OF AMERICA.
I HAVE 2 DIFFERENT MESH INSIDE ME, AND MORE DAMAGE IS WHAT THEY WILL DO NO MATTER WHERE i GO, i cannot let them keep butchering on me causing more pain and suffering and nothing for the pain, I WANT DEATH, THAT TO SUFFER , AS humanbeing it is to much. for me to bear. my chice is death but with merct and in a humane way, a shot to put me to sleep and stop my heart, we show mercy to animals suffering , I WANT THAT ALSO AS A HUMAN BEING .
laws need to be passed to help those suffering and that is all they have left, it’s not living, it is a low death and murder, with no mercy, as the slow death of crusifying humans in history and so evil.
As she pleads for death I am trying to figure out how she can live. Stupid really I know. The reality is eventually she will die but it will be a slow and unmerciful death. Now you know why I do this and the river of tears I stand in.